Lately, I’ve felt like I’m losing my sense of self and slipping back into excuses and procrastination.
I stopped journaling for a while, and I’ve blamed my blogging for it — though I realize I don’t have to do both if I can capture enough in one. Still, constantly questioning myself, my actions, and my thoughts isn’t easy.
It makes me wonder if it’s really possible to reach a point where I don’t even know my own thoughts or can’t control them. That’s something I hope never to find out. These journal entries and blog posts are my attempt to stay grounded. Maybe someday, I’ll understand myself better and notice things I don’t yet see.
I’ve realized I need to schedule time for personal reflection at least once a day, so I don’t fall completely off track. I’m moving slowly, but I’m hopeful for the future. I know I need to do better, which is why I’m sharing these thoughts here again.
Self-reflection is meant to guide us, to help us make better decisions and live better lives. It’s easy to get lost in thought, even self-reflective thought, but being aware means taking responsibility. Scheduling time daily, even briefly, seems logical — though I’m not sure if I can make it a habit. Finding a balance between reflection and engaging with the world is the real challenge.
I hope I can see this through, and maybe this post helps me along the way.